I always knew that you’d go someday.
I convinced myself I was ready for the pain,
but the days don’t pass when you don’t cross my mind.
The sting I feel only reminds me I’m running out of time.
I wish I could say I knew you more
but the stories help me understand.
Provider of life for your family
& taught my father how to be a man.
I watched the disease invade the life in you
like a flower withering away.
The thought of death blackened every color of every day.
I’m glad I didn’t see the end
because I don’t know how I would cope
with you seeing you go under the earth.
You’ll be the light that shines through my eyes.
Maybe we can meet again if there is this afterlife.
No more suffering. No more pain. You are free.
released December 5, 2014
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